Secondlina's Panels

Hear that? That's the sound of my brain melting.

Well, no, not really. I got better.

Long story short, you guys know I work both on printed comics, an online comic and some random illustration work (plus my random tech support day job at 37 hours per week).

I was working on "Psychopomps" this week, with the help of putri_nih  and dqbunny . I was working on dialog and storylines and basically doing "thumbnails" (aka small sketchy versions of the real pages) and I realized pretty quickly that "Psychopomps" was freaking LONG. I'm talking 100 pages here. And this comic needed to be finished in two months so it could be presented and sold to the TCAF (Toronto Comic Arts Festival).  Now, not to toot my own horn or anything, but I can draw 100 pages in 2 months. No, really. But only when i'm not working. If I was jobless, this comic would have been draw, colored, printed and wrapped weeks before the TCAF. But since I do have and require a job to live, this isn't going to happen.

Because i'm such a stable girl, this send me in a weird spiraling loops of freaking out. I wanted to finish this comic for the TCAF. I wanted to go to the TCAF to meet a whole bunch of artists friends. I wanted to achieve this.

But yeah. I'm not an idiot. I realize that under the current circumstances, it ain't happening. My editor reassured me that he had no problem with me getting this done later and therefore only presenting it at the TCAF for next year. So I guess 2012 will be my year for comics. I plan on having two wonderful books ready for the 2012 comic conventions.

I wish I had cash that fell out of the sky or something.

I was still going to work hard on the off-chance that I manage to finish in time for the TCAF, but really, I think it would be better if I took my time and produced good pages with good inking instead of pages inked quickly in a fashion that just screams "PANIC". Because inking by hand can look great, but not when you nervously squibble.

I wish I could draw all day and get income that way.

Guess i'll need to work on my portfolio and start applying to agencies for artists and such.

ALSO REALLY GOOD NEWS : Link finally got a job as game designer in a small company. He's finally going to be able to live off his art, after 5 years of trying. I'm so happy, proud and jealous at the same time. This calls for an epic party.

Sorry for unloading on you guys again. But your comments always make me feel better! :D HUGS ALL AROUND!

Have an Alice and Lewis Carroll drawing. This got turned into a colored donation wallpaper for Namesake.



- Isa

 Some people can juggle work and university and stuff quite fine. Well...well enough anyways. None of them really look that rested and/or have grades of doom. I personally don't think i'm one of them. I figured i'd try; I tried doing september in full with a job, and internship and school. I figured i'd have just enough time to do homework in between and all would be well. I forgot to include in the equation the fact that there would be team work, fundraising events, organizing the final year exhibit and you know...me wanting to live a little in that. I also somewhat forgot to include in my equation travelling; those buses eat up your time. Seriously, if you plan to lead a full life try to find an appartment close to job & school. Buses will suck your energy dead. 

To resume it: I don't think I can keep going like this.

I don't want my last year at the U, and in this area, to be as boring and work-full as the rest. I mean...I've pretty much been miss anonymous student all my life. I'd like to be able to take a bit advantage of student life before it's truly over. And by that I don't just mean suck on a keg's tube. I mean, go to the librairy, read, use the U gym, visit some friends, etc.

So, I decided to take a break from my job. My actual paying job at Tim Hortons. The internship is not paid, but it's mandatory for me to graduate. I technically don't need the job. My school is paid, my bus cards are paid, most of my art material should be paid. My money is basically me getting money to go out and buy books. Which is completly absurd since I don't have time to read or go anywhere anymore. So I figured work was the easiest thing to boot off the list. I asked my boss if I could take a break till January, when my internship will end. Then, I can work and not die from having two jobs. It's not many hours back, only 8 to 16, but it's still a whole one or two days i'm getting back to dedicate to my art. 

So woo. I have two shifts left and i'm officially out of Timmies for a few months.

I feel kindoff guilty about doing this since I have friends who are stuck working long hours because they have no choice. I feel that if they can and have to do it, I should too. Then Link pretty much hit me upside the head (methaphorically) and told me it was stupid for me to turn down an advantage just because I could have it and others could not. Sure it's not fair. Life is not fair. And when life tosses a break at you, you take it because god knows next time it won't. So I took the break, the easy path. If anything, I'll use that extra time to help others who can't take it. And draw comics of course. And make better projects for my finals.

*sssssiiigh*

I kinda feel relief. No matter how easy this job is, it's still a pretty stressful environnement (all that "go" "go" "quick" "quick" "nownownow") and i'm glad that's off my stress-o-meter. Now I can fully worry about what the hell i'm doing for art.

-Secondlina

Okay. This post is directed to the two idiots who keep sending me emails.

Dear idiot number 1...
Stop saying my drawings are terrible and that I could do much better if I tried. I already KNEW that. The drawings I post on here are NOT drawings I have worked on for hours. I use this journal to post humor and little sketches I like. Obviously, the stuff I spend 12 hours on is much bigger, better, and important to me for me to want to post it on a place where any jack and jill can just save it on his computer.  I like the drawings I post here, because they are daily little drawings about my life that I do as fast as I can in a way, and that express loads of emotions I adore. I am AWARE that they sometimes suck, are not inked and sometimes not erased. Please fuck off and never speak to me again. If you want to see good art, go on deviant art or something. This is not a gallery. It's a diary. Learn the difference from a thesaurus.

Dear idiot number two...
I DO NOT DRAW PORN.
Nor will I ever draw porn. And if ever by any chance I do, I will not post it here for your viewing pleasure. The fact that I have a boyfriend and drew one explicit joke about stripping does not mean i'm a hentai artist. Where the fucking fuck did you get an idea like that? Stop requesting comics about my sex life, what Link and I do in the bedroom is none of your fucking buiness. The simple fact that you asked that makes you a sick moron. 80% of the internet is porn. Why the hell do you fucking feel like harassing me? Type porn on google if you wanna see a girl fuck a fucking cactus for all I care BUT STOP BUGGING ME!

Please understand that I have deleted all your posts, emails and blocked you completly. Ever post anything on this site again, and I will delete it and send l33t ninjas to collect your heads. 

God, I can't believe I wasted a post on you people...
You people aren't friends, are even fans. You'Re web rejects. Please, go to hell.

On somewhat related news, never expect anybody to call you back, especially if they owe you money. I feel like ripping the eyelids off my ex-boss. He still owes me a whole paycheck. FUCKER! And other people still owe me 400$ for drawings. WHY DON'T PEOPLE EVER CALL BACK! CURSE ALL OF YOU!

Morning shift people at Tim horton can kiss the fastest part of my ass (right here baby) and go sit on a pincushion. I'm not their friggin' slave.

Whew.
yukinoomoni, I hope my ranting skills make you proud!

I kinda like the drawing I put here. It's very gruesome. Kinda differs from my usual stuff. A bit like this post.