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• Try to explain to him that I require payment and that I had to re-draw the thing and that I won't do any other changes before he pays me.
• Tell him politly to keep this drawing since he already has it and doesn't want to pay me but that I won't make any more changes or deal with him again due to this attitude he has and has had in the past.
• Tell him to stick the drawing where the sun don't shine and never deal with him again.

I hope everybody else's holiday is going well, mine is taking a turn for the worse.My mother is stressed because we are going to visit relatives, so she and my dad keep fighting. Also, she sneaked into my room and emptied out my tiny suitcase to replace it by a huge hockey bag she stuffed with odd combination of clothes that actually match. I got mad at her for doing that, figures only my mother is able to turn a 4 day worth suitcase into a 30 day truckload.

I told I agree with the idea of dressing nicely to visit people, but i'de rather dress in my style of nicely. It's family for pete's sake. What are we trying to do? Pretend we are somebody else? Think we are better then them?

Then she told me my style putted her to shame. I then slammed the door and have spent the day in here ever since...

Figures, a holiday with my mother can turn a proud 20 year old into a 15 year old again.

I'm not really in a good mood. And I unfortunatly don't have a better drawing to post then this "book of spells" screencap I find cool.

I'm sick of people in general right now, hyocritical bastards...I feel like everybody I talk to in school is currently going "Me, me, me, me" about their problems and then they look at me and go "So, are you gonna help me or what?" I kinda feel used in a general way. I don't really want people to suddently pay an immense attention to how i'm feeling or what not (it's never really been an issue, I like my feelings private) but i'de really like them to stop using me as a exam and life answer book. My mother says I should be grateful that people come to me for advice. I don't mind giving advice, but I do mind people that dump all the teamwork on me and leave me alone in a bad situation with a potentially rabid guy.

*sigh*

Isa, the carpet. Wipe your feet upon me.

On a brighter note (forcing myself to do some, or i'm gonna get REALLY negative), my photo work is improving greatly subject wise. I'm really starting to do some interesting stuff with light and objects. I think it did me some good to work without human subjects for a while. I'm starting to produce things like abstract paintings. Psychadelic.

I don't like abstract usually, but I like the one i'm producing as of late. Odd.

  I WOVE you frodo!

Okay, yesterday I got reminded of something I also though was odd in the fan world: Slashies or fan service gay relantionships. It's not that I have something against gay couples, a lot of people in my class are gay and I love talking to them. I also appreciate gay couplings in certain books are series such as strangers in paradise, runaways, buffy and xena. Slashies annoy me because of two things:

a) They are imaginary.

b) It's just not a gay relantionship.

Slashies are imaginary. In series such as slayers, a lot of people coupled zelgadiss with xelloss. I though that point of view was interesting so I watched slayers looking for any trace of Yaoi I could encounter and all I saw was zelgadiss pissed off. I know that whole "you hurt the ones you love routine" but usually when you choose that routine there's an evolution to be noted in the characters closenest as well (aka, stuck in more situations together) which never happens with zel/xel since xelloss teleports in and out of stuff all the time and usually close to Lina, the heroine. Not to mention there's a limit to hurting the ones you love routine. I kinda draw the line at wanting to grin their bones. Not to mention zelgadiss falls in the blushaton everytime amelia falls on him. Now, I admit that certain entertainement pushes fan service to the max and makes slashies hard to not consider (has anyone else seen the return of the king? The loooong meaningful looks) but it's still imaginary. If you read the book, there is no gay relantionship at all. It's simply a strong bond that the director of the movie was a moron in adapting. I congratulate people that create slashies, it prouve that they have a lot of imagination for one, and also, what's the use of being a fan when you write fanfics if you can't play it around a bit? I just don't like when people make official couplings out of it when those clearly don't exist. Fan coupling, yes. Official coupling...noooo. I mean, if you love slashies, there's some perfectly good gay stories out there that I reccommend like nothing else. All yuri fans, hell, all gay story fans, grab yourself a copy of strangers in paradise from Terry moore right this second. It's a homosexual relantionship like you've never seen it...

And it is, because manga does a shitty job in portraying gay relantionship. Manga portrayes it like fans see it: as an imaginary thing. Why? Because in a lot of Yaoi, one of the characters looks like a girl, acts like a girl and needs to be protected like a girl. Yaoi in japan is basicly an excuse for writting a sappy story. Well, at least commercial yaoi is. More underground manga have a very interesting yaoi collection that explores the depts of being in that kind of relantionship, because it's not like an heterosexual relantionship. Homosexual relantionships aren't always accepted everywhere, where as heterosexual yes, hence in partriarcal societies like japan, being gay is probably not as fun as in the commercial yaoi. It can be stressful. I find interesting books that explore at the same time how gay relantionships are similar to heterosexual relantionships, and yet different and how it can be confusing for the characters to mistake it with certain things like Doseiai (a renoun feeling in japan that unites two women in perfect harmony and trust, but that aren't gay. They have a very strong complicity and express their feelings strongly. It's a loving relantionship.)

Okay, well, that's my rant for today. I say people, demand good yaoi. The kind that is sensible, well plotted and if possible, dosen't include an idol (aaargh, why are they always idols?)