wow, can you believe it? Secondlina updates a lot lately. Holy mac.

[secondlina]

Yes, I know. I'm a very negative girl. So much that sometimes it annoys me as much as everybody else. I know my dark clouds are a bit hard to take. So i'd like to take a second to thank people.

Do anybody know the legend of Tam lin? It's a scottish tale about a man so brave he was loved by the faery queen herself. However, the man already had a girfriend that wanted him back so hse went to defy the queen. She won him back by holding him tight while the queen changed him into a series of terrifying monsters.



Sometimes I feel like Tam lin. Like my life is turning me into a bit confused, depressed selfish monster. I will lash out at however is close to me then. I will sink my claws in them and hurt them.

And yet, these people do now let go. They hold me tight until I stop transforming into a monster.

Tama, Fauve, Sofi, Wesley, Sarae, Julie, Isabelle, Pascal...and even you guys that i've met here on the web (ichiban, yukiomoni, earthstar)...and even Kevin and the other pascal...and so much other people. And my family. Despite it all I love you so. I love how some of you have the unwielding faith in what I can do, and in my drawing capacities even when I do not. I love how when my own darkness is crushing me, you stand by me.

You won't let me fall. 

And I wonder what thing I did to deserve such good karma.

Hell, i'd do it again.

I,ll try to be less negative now, i'll try to let your love erase from my soul the bad memories that seem to make my drown.

Thanks guys.



p.s. I finally changed my icons for a set of icons with the same character (more or less) I chose librairian Lina's and a character called Lena from Secrets of Sorcerers to represent me. I like Lena because she looks like a short haired Lina. Just like me I suppose. I also have two icons that I will use for Rpg related-updates and I've kept the stripteasing  zelgadiss icon to mark fanart related posts. I'v also kept my original icon, that I love and adore and will never delete.

Because, wind...it's fashionnable.

Comments

Life...

[tuppa-tuppa.livejournal.com]

Hey that's me in the top drawing! Hehe
Zaza, remember those days where I was negative et depressed a lot. Where did that go? *shrugs*
I think that working at Tim Hortons these past years as put a different perspective on life. I don't want to stay there all my life, I don't want to be cranky old ladies like the morning shift. What I do know is that I want more out of life and it gives me hopes that someday I'll have a nice and well-payed career. I'll look back on those days and say "Wow, I really grew and matured from those days"

So here's what I say; Think positive and think that everything happens for a reason. Maybe it's because of all the bad things that happen that makes us good people and good friends.

Tama loves you!

Re: Life...

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it is you! ^^
You've been taking in a lot of my crap lately and you made me feel better a lot. thanks. I figured it deserved a comic.
God I hope you don't join the morning shift crew. Those ladies have serious broom-in-the-ass issues.

I like to think i've matured a lot lately too. I'm less of a kid. Maybe I should try thinking that everything works by cause and consequence. This part of my life that is going pretty smooth seems to be making up for my younger years and all the teasing and bullying and other shit I seemed to be collecting.

Isa loves you too! ^^

[dqbunny.livejournal.com]

That first comic could easily be me destroying the little word balloon. :D

It's OK to feel sad and depressed at times, hon. ::hugs:: Lately, I've been feeling a loneliness so raw that it feels like it's eating me from the inside out. That coincides with the feelings of being very happy and very normal. Those emotions all balance you out and make you who you are. You just had to let Link move away. That's a damn good reason not to be in a heart and sparklies mood at the moment.

So, it's OK to be a monster, to be human. We'll all still be here for you when the sun shines again. That's what true friendship is.

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

I find that comic to be a pretty original way of illustrating someone cheering up another LOL. But the character is actually my best friend Tama.

I've seen you sink in a bit of a depression lately. I got out of mine. I mean, I feel a bit shitty about working with certain people and about not seeing Link very much anymore but I can't let that slow me down. Soon i'm gonna be super busy and I need to think clear. I need to think positive and I can do it!

I think Tam lin is the tale that everyone should be. Everyone from time to time turns into a monster. But everyone also has the strenght to hold another has they do. True friendship, and love, is like that.

Sharing love is something I've always sucked at...but I just want to do it more and more because of all these fantastic people I meet, you included ^^

[dqbunny.livejournal.com]

It's probably generated by the move across the country and trying to come to grips with everything that's happen. Most of the time, I don't feel depressed. Just lonely. Usually, that will be cured by glomping a cat or blowing up stuff in WoW.

You left some really good advice over in my LJ, which I am running over to answer right now (notification system is down again, boo!)

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

Cats are awesome compagny and video games rock to get rid of angst. (I need to go wack things with a giant key in Kingdom hearts myself.)

I don't really think my advice is something people should always lisend to, but it's what I feel should be said, so I say it ^^

[ichiban-victory.livejournal.com]

I want to borrow your friends. ^_- You are lucky to have such a great support system to help keep you out of the pit of misery. I'm not going to delve into mine, but I didn't really have that, so I had to pull myself out. (Then again, being around people who only pity themselves and think everything is out to get them really frustrate me.) You choose your attitude, be it good or bad. Although it's good to have people there to help remind you about your good qualities.

I wish I could be around more often to just let you talk, just so I felt like I was doing more to help you out. Since I can't (our work and time zone schedules don't seem to like each other), I'm glad there are other people who can. Although, even when I can't be around to help, you can bet I'll be clinging onto you, riding out whatever storm there may be. (I'll be that nagging thought in the back of your mind.) ^_-

P.S. - Wind is very fashionable. I love that icon!

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

I think the idea is to find a select few of people that really care about you. I have but a few friends and I love them to pieces. I,m very difficult about people. You annoy me and I will never speak to you again. If I like you though, I can be the nicest person in the universe.

I wish I could see you in person! Once I get my driver's license, i'm gonna have to drive down in the USA one day to go meet all the fantastic people I know there!

And see, you're not anal about having amelia as a theme. A theme is good. No theme makes for chaotic icon stuff...

[earthstar-moon.livejournal.com]

We all feel sad and depress at times. That's what makes us human. I know there are times I can feel frustrated about school or trying to figure out what to do with my life.

I think it's times when you're feeling down is when you truly realize who your friends and that thought itself always cheers me up. Plus, it's always good to tell someone how you're feeling then letting it bottle up inside you. It's healthy.

By the way, your icons amuse me and yes wind is fashionable. ^_~

Dongeon ce vendredi

[(Anonymous)]

ouais... ok, c'est pas vraiment un message ça!

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

Wow! I want to read that manga! Is that in ANY relation to Slayers, or is it a coincidence?

[(Anonymous)]

it's some sort of fan comic very strongly based on slayers. See for yourself at : http://www.ztarr.net/sos-website/

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

The link, she is broken.

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

Try this one:
www.secretsofsorcerers.com