secondlina | wow, can you believe it? Secondlina updates a lot lately. Holy mac. (Reply)

Yes, I know. I'm a very negative girl. So much that sometimes it annoys me as much as everybody else. I know my dark clouds are a bit hard to take. So i'd like to take a second to thank people.

Do anybody know the legend of Tam lin? It's a scottish tale about a man so brave he was loved by the faery queen herself. However, the man already had a girfriend that wanted him back so hse went to defy the queen. She won him back by holding him tight while the queen changed him into a series of terrifying monsters.

Sometimes I feel like Tam lin. Like my life is turning me into a bit confused, depressed selfish monster. I will lash out at however is close to me then. I will sink my claws in them and hurt them.

And yet, these people do now let go. They hold me tight until I stop transforming into a monster.

Tama, Fauve, Sofi, Wesley, Sarae, Julie, Isabelle, Pascal...and even you guys that i've met here on the web (ichiban, yukiomoni, earthstar)...and even Kevin and the other pascal...and so much other people. And my family. Despite it all I love you so. I love how some of you have the unwielding faith in what I can do, and in my drawing capacities even when I do not. I love how when my own darkness is crushing me, you stand by me.

You won't let me fall.

And I wonder what thing I did to deserve such good karma.

Hell, i'd do it again.

I,ll try to be less negative now, i'll try to let your love erase from my soul the bad memories that seem to make my drown.

Thanks guys.

p.s. I finally changed my icons for a set of icons with the same character (more or less) I chose librairian Lina's and a character called Lena from Secrets of Sorcerers to represent me. I like Lena because she looks like a short haired Lina. Just like me I suppose. I also have two icons that I will use for Rpg related-updates and I've kept the stripteasing zelgadiss icon to mark fanart related posts. I'v also kept my original icon, that I love and adore and will never delete.

Because, wind...it's fashionnable.