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It's no big secret that the past year has pretty much been punctuated with some pretty awful depression and anxiety, mostly because of myself. I'm a bit silly that way. Hanging at the Toronto Comic Arts Festival helped me gain a bit of perspective. I feel motivated again. I met a ton of other artists and managed to talk for a good bit with a few of my idols (like Erika Moen, Dylan Meconis and Ross Campbell). I also met in person my friends Adriana and Wei.

I think it did me some good to spend some time in a place where comics were the most important thing in the world (aka, the contrary of my usual location). Hanging out with other artist made me see that I wasn't the only one struggling. I wasn't the only one with a bunch of insecurity and fatigue due to juggling a day job on top of an artist job. It made me realize that, though i'm not the best artist or scenarist out there (i'm looking at you, Emily, you're the best lol), I definitely have a good potential. I'm going to have to work hard. And life is going to be hard. But, i'm not the type that gives up. I'm the proactive type. This weekend, in some way, as restored a bit of my faith in myself and made me realize a couple of things that I need to do... Time to make a massive to do list and think of some life goals. *laughs*

I know these are totally things people have been telling me over and over, but I guess there's a difference between having a friend tell you (and you having a little voice in your head saying they might be lying to be reassuring) and being immersed in an environment where everything around you confirms facts as an absolute truth. Go figure. As usual, it takes me forever to realize something, and I only realize it when something smacks me in the face.

.......I still haven't unpacked.

Seriously.  Luggage is the bane of my existence.

- Isa