secondlina | Wet Dog

Nothing sucks more then being caught in cold wind and rain...except being caught in cold wind and rain during rush hour in Ottawa....oh, yeah, and being caught in cold wind and rain during rush hour in Ottawa while carrying two bags, a painting tube and two paintings bigger then you badly wrapped in plastic bags is no pinic either. I was rather happy when I got home. This experience would not have been quite as bad if it wasn't rush hour though. A bunch of people on the bus kept leaning on my paintings...But most people were very understanding and helpful, so that was cool. ^^

Reh, I still don't enjoy all this rain too much. Mainly because I carry so much paper around. I'm not a water-type person. I'm more wind or fire, thanks. I like my soothing heat and light, thanks.

I think I just knocked myself out of a weird phase I was in. Maybe rain was a cold shower I needed. I've been kindoff a brat and a whiny groutch since I got back from Toronto. I'm actually looking back and realising i'm annoying myself. I caused quite a lot of bullshit with schedules at work, which was stupid. I don't get why I took the whole schedule crap so badly. Honestly, I got called in at the last minute a good few times and it din't even bother me. So I wonder why that time did...I think I was just being a jerk. Oh well. My boss wants to talk to me and I don't blame her. I deserve a warning. I'm not gonna defend myself, it's really all my fault or at least mostly my fault, so i'm just going to take it like I should. It's no big deal. As long as I realise i've messed up, I think i'll be fine. I'm not at risk of getting fired either, which would suck, so I think it's cool. Obviously, i'm loosing some brownie points here, but i'll just have to make up for it by doing my work well. I wonder if i'll get back to two shifts a week next week. I don't want to ask my boss for it after all the turd I caused this week so I'm just going to let her do the schedules she wants. Basicly the wait and see.

On a brither note, I just subcrived to an internet art image database throught my university called Artstor. It has truckloads of wicked images for so many artists O_O I looked up some of my favorite ones and saw these wonderful pencil sketches by Mucha and Klimt. Lovely stuff. ^^

Well, tomorrow I think i'm gonna take an art day and concentrate on all my art-related homework. ^^ Maybe draw a comic or two.

-secondlina

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I don't think I was a groutch because of that. Considering all the times i've went and returned, i'm pretty much used to it now.

I think the grouchiness and lack of motivation was due to a lack of ideas for art and essays and my usual stomach aches. Lack of sleep probably as a hand in this too. I need to learn to relax before bed so I don't lay awake for hours.

I basicly need to learn to pace myself more, organize my shit better and stop working once in a while for a few hours.

It's alright to be in a bad mood, it's true. But it's not okay to snap, snarlw, gripe and spew at every single living thing that speaks to you.

Well, it's good that you KNOW what you need. Maybe your tummy aches are related to all of these yucky and upset feelings.

Wet Dog

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