secondlina | Wet Dog

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Wet Dog

Nothing sucks more then being caught in cold wind and rain...except being caught in cold wind and rain during rush hour in Ottawa....oh, yeah, and being caught in cold wind and rain during rush hour in Ottawa while carrying two bags, a painting tube and two paintings bigger then you badly wrapped in plastic bags is no pinic either. I was rather happy when I got home. This experience would not have been quite as bad if it wasn't rush hour though. A bunch of people on the bus kept leaning on my paintings...But most people were very understanding and helpful, so that was cool. ^^

Reh, I still don't enjoy all this rain too much. Mainly because I carry so much paper around. I'm not a water-type person. I'm more wind or fire, thanks. I like my soothing heat and light, thanks.

I think I just knocked myself out of a weird phase I was in. Maybe rain was a cold shower I needed. I've been kindoff a brat and a whiny groutch since I got back from Toronto. I'm actually looking back and realising i'm annoying myself. I caused quite a lot of bullshit with schedules at work, which was stupid. I don't get why I took the whole schedule crap so badly. Honestly, I got called in at the last minute a good few times and it din't even bother me. So I wonder why that time did...I think I was just being a jerk. Oh well. My boss wants to talk to me and I don't blame her. I deserve a warning. I'm not gonna defend myself, it's really all my fault or at least mostly my fault, so i'm just going to take it like I should. It's no big deal. As long as I realise i've messed up, I think i'll be fine. I'm not at risk of getting fired either, which would suck, so I think it's cool. Obviously, i'm loosing some brownie points here, but i'll just have to make up for it by doing my work well. I wonder if i'll get back to two shifts a week next week. I don't want to ask my boss for it after all the turd I caused this week so I'm just going to let her do the schedules she wants. Basicly the wait and see.

On a brither note, I just subcrived to an internet art image database throught my university called Artstor. It has truckloads of wicked images for so many artists O_O I looked up some of my favorite ones and saw these wonderful pencil sketches by Mucha and Klimt. Lovely stuff. ^^

Well, tomorrow I think i'm gonna take an art day and concentrate on all my art-related homework. ^^ Maybe draw a comic or two.

-secondlina

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Trop de devoir de Maya, je me retrouve à faire presque juste ça durant la semaine... à aprt les deux heures de collage ou de design...

Il a plu ici aussi. Je ne sais aps à aprtir de quelle heure, mais tout ce que je sais, c'est qu,une foisqu'il fallait que ej sorte dehors pour changer de cours, il pleuvait et il faisait froid! Une cape n'est asp un bon manteau, quand on doit porter son sac à dos par dessus! Mais au moins, à cause de la pluie, le bus a été retardé de une ou deux minutes, ce qui m'a laissé juste assez de temps pour arriver à temps pour le prendre!

Et je ne m'inquiéterais pas pour ta job au Tim Hortons. Tu es probablement une de leur employés les plus éduqués... Et en plus, à cause que tu es à l'université, tu as techniquement le droit de chiale pour ton horaire, parce que tu es probablement la personne avec l'horaire la plus aléatoire de tous les employés! Le secondaire? Le cégep? C,est rien, une fois que tu as connu l'université!

C,est pas très gentil pour les autres employés...

Et puis c'était pas du chialage d'horaire. C'était carrément moi qui faisiat pas ce que j'ai dit que je ferais. ^^;;; J'suis plutôt dans le tort.

I love the rain myself. ^_^;; Water and art supplies don't generally get along, so I can see the frustrations there. (That's what waterproof bags and big sheets of plastic are for!) You need to update that picture with you being all soggy and grumpy, and me being all soggy and cheery. (I seriously love getting drenched. I miss being where the rain is.)

I'd comment more, but my computer is suddenly screaming for memory. Good luck with the homework!

Big Halloween leaf trashbags are a gift from god. That's all I gotta say. XD

The're even orange!

Ugh. Join the warning group. I wish you didn't have to. I understand where you're coming from though. When I got written up, I knew that the stuff that happened was my fault and no one else's. It just royally, royally sucked. Maybe tomorrow, since you'll be concentrating on all your art-related homework, it might allow your creatvity to poke out a bit more. Mine is thanks to my new external harddrive that I can store lots and lots of stuff on!

It doesn't suck that much. I'm not at risk of loosing my job or anything, and I know I did wrong, so i'm actually pretty cool with it.

I'm glad that I took the day to draw, I did some pretty interesting stuff ^^ And I built myself a travelling portefolio for my bigger paintings ^^

Normally, I like rain, except in cases (like today) when I have to walk in the rain while I'm at school. And it's been a very wet fall this year. @_@

Good luck with your boss. Warnings aren't fun to get, but at least you've perpared yourself for it and good luck with your homework. I would say more but I have to go to school. ^_^;

Luck is not needed...only skillz. XD

I don't think anything really difficult is awaiting, i'll be fine.

Yesterday was TERRIBLE.

You're being too hard on yourself. Can I safely assume that you were being a grouch because you wanted to STAY in Toronto with Link?

Ease up on yourself. It's alright to be in a bad mood. ;.;

I don't think I was a groutch because of that. Considering all the times i've went and returned, i'm pretty much used to it now.

I think the grouchiness and lack of motivation was due to a lack of ideas for art and essays and my usual stomach aches. Lack of sleep probably as a hand in this too. I need to learn to relax before bed so I don't lay awake for hours.

I basicly need to learn to pace myself more, organize my shit better and stop working once in a while for a few hours.

It's alright to be in a bad mood, it's true. But it's not okay to snap, snarlw, gripe and spew at every single living thing that speaks to you.

Well, it's good that you KNOW what you need. Maybe your tummy aches are related to all of these yucky and upset feelings.

A post from the anonymous rat-tailed man.
You say you were in a weird phase.
I agree, you weren't in your average "whatever happens to me, I probably deserve it" phase. It's.... not necessarily a bad thing.
There'one thing you seemed to have learned in a bad way thruout your life. LIFE IS UNFAIRE.
The reason I'm saying this is that if something bad happens to you, it DOESN'T necessarily mean you deserved it. Lately you've actually been fighting back these little or not so little annoyances. The fact that it's been drainning your energy seems pretty normal to me. Lately, you've actually been setting up some boundaries as to what your whilling to accept and what is too much.
I think that it's definately a good thing, cuz, as you know very well, I think that a lot of your personnal boundaries where either too vague, or too low.
I think your just a little unused to this "sticking with your personnal boundaries" thing.
There's always the chance that you've been going overboard. But from what I've been hearing or reading, if you are going overboard, it's only very little.

Ok....

I think this post has been going on for long enough so, so I'll stop now.

Don't give up
Bye

I think I did go somewhat a lot overboard, and I have been in a very foul mood. More then I should be, even with people who are basicly asking for it.

And the Tim Hortons business IS my fault. I fucked around with the schedule big time when I could have just done my job correctly and it would have changed absolutly nothing to my day. I'm the one at fault here. I gotta admit other people came into play, but it was mainly me that got up and caused trouble and din't respect my hours. ^^;;; I really don't get why I was so much of a witch that day. I did the same hours in worse conditions and I was actually pretty okay with it. Aside from the morning shift people, I'm generally okay with most Tim Hortons stuff. This time I actually mixed up everybody's schedules for no reason. Just because I felt like being a jerk. It's neither nice or well-motivated ^^;;; Well, I guess everybody gets to be the villain at least once. This was my villainous turn. I'll behave better on my next shift.

Feh. I din't really enjoy being the bad guy this week.

When shit hit the fan...
Things have just gotten worse. Evening supervisor tried to tell on me because I told her that I had left out a detail when I spoke with the manager... Luckily, the manager had already been informed by me a day before, so that saved my butt.
However, now the evening supervisor is trying to stir up shit and get me in trouble. She gave a speech to my mom yesterday saying that I was talking behind her back, that I was annoying because I wanted to know everything about everything...
All I said was "I don't know why she hates me so much" so if that's talking behind her back, then yeah I guess I'm guilty. It's true, I'm curious but I not the one who brought her in back to know why that girl was getting fired, she did! She brought me in back! She's accusing me of all stuff that SHE DID!
She said that I hated her. Well I didn't especially like her to begin with, but now my emotions and temper has been given a violent shove into HATE.

uh-oh.
Argh. I feel terrible. Considering this is mainly my fault, you can just tell the evening supervisor she can hate me instead. ^^; I don't really mind. Sorry about all the trouble Tama. ^^;;; I din't mean for stuff to become stupid. >_<

I can't believe myself. I really need to learn to get my temper in check or something. For once that I get annoyed, it's for a really lameass reason that stirs up a truckload of shit.

The evening supervisor seems paranoid though. Maybe she thinks we are plotting to fire her next or something.

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