I... don't know what i'm doing.

[secondlina]

So, I took a pretty big decision yesterday. I gave my two week's notice. I think it's the right thing to do. I'm dissatisfied with my performance. I honestly think that i'm not the right person for the job I was filling anymore. Which happens. My office has been evolving a lot, people changing, people getting promoted to different places. And I just didn't fit that well. It's a pretty friendly leave, since I think people agree that i'm not the right person for this anyways. So... yeah.

I found another job. This one is part-time in a bookstore for comics. The job sounds awesome, but I am freaking out majorly. I was never on part time before. I'm happy i'll get time to draw, but i'm worried about money. So... yeah. I've been spending the last day nervously fidgeting in a corner, wondering if I did the smart thing. Which I probably did not, but hey, it's done.

I don't know what i'm doing. I don't know if it's going to work out. I don't know if this is the smart choice. And despite everyone telling me i'll be fine, I have never felt more anxious in my life. I really hope I haven't screwed myself over. Because I do that. I wish someone could look into the future and tell me. Half of me is happy, and the other half kinda feels like an epic failure.

Well, i,m going to try. Que sera, sera, I guess.

Have some comic about mermaids, inspired by brendala 's comment last post.



- Isa

Comments

[fenmere.livejournal.com]

One thing you can do to peer into the future is do the numbers. Figure out what your paycheck is likely to be, subtract your bills from it, then see what you have left. Figure out how to live within that. It'll look really, really tight, but if you spend more time drawing and going for walks or visit parks for pass time, you can space out your expensive pastimes and help make it work. But more importantly, doing the numbers and visualizing how you'll do it will go a long way toward easing that anxiety.

[ichiban-victory.livejournal.com]

This right here is sound advice, I do it every time I get a new job as well. Yeah, you might not be earning a ton of money anymore, but if you can still get by, even if it means not spending as much on things you want, you ought to do just fine.

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

I guess I should also visualize the projects i'll be able to do. See how that helps boost my career too.