I... don't know what i'm doing.

[secondlina]

So, I took a pretty big decision yesterday. I gave my two week's notice. I think it's the right thing to do. I'm dissatisfied with my performance. I honestly think that i'm not the right person for the job I was filling anymore. Which happens. My office has been evolving a lot, people changing, people getting promoted to different places. And I just didn't fit that well. It's a pretty friendly leave, since I think people agree that i'm not the right person for this anyways. So... yeah.

I found another job. This one is part-time in a bookstore for comics. The job sounds awesome, but I am freaking out majorly. I was never on part time before. I'm happy i'll get time to draw, but i'm worried about money. So... yeah. I've been spending the last day nervously fidgeting in a corner, wondering if I did the smart thing. Which I probably did not, but hey, it's done.

I don't know what i'm doing. I don't know if it's going to work out. I don't know if this is the smart choice. And despite everyone telling me i'll be fine, I have never felt more anxious in my life. I really hope I haven't screwed myself over. Because I do that. I wish someone could look into the future and tell me. Half of me is happy, and the other half kinda feels like an epic failure.

Well, i,m going to try. Que sera, sera, I guess.

Have some comic about mermaids, inspired by brendala 's comment last post.



- Isa

Comments

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

First of all, congratulations! That's a huge step towards getting what needs to be done, done.

Second, I know it seems scary and daunting right now, especially if you're used to full-time salary and such. But remember: You're also selling your own work on the side, and you could always make sure that your new boss(es) know that you are open for as many shifts as they can give you.

Third: I think this is a great chance for you. It gives you, like you said, plenty of time to work on your own work, and that could just be the amount of time you need to get your name further out there. You WILL have to live frugally for a while, but I have a feeling that it'll be worth it.

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's probably going to eventually bring in a lot of good things. I guess I just worry because I don't have a lot of confidence and trust in myself.