I am so sorry hun. I know I don't know you really at all but trust me, I know *exactly* what your going through right now (though siutations are, of coarse, always different... emotions never are). Life is inevitable sometimes, and this can be a big component of it. I'm not going to belittle you and try to disect the situtation, but I am going to say this: Take care. Take it easy and take care. =( *hug*