Hear that? That's the sound of my brain melting.
Well, no, not really. I got better.
Long story short, you guys know I work both on printed comics, an online comic and some random illustration work (plus my random tech support day job at 37 hours per week).
I was working on "Psychopomps" this week, with the help of putri_nih
. I was working on dialog and storylines and basically doing "thumbnails" (aka small sketchy versions of the real pages) and I realized pretty quickly that "Psychopomps" was freaking LONG. I'm talking 100 pages here. And this comic needed to be finished in two months so it could be presented and sold to the TCAF (Toronto Comic Arts Festival). Now, not to toot my own horn or anything, but I can draw 100 pages in 2 months. No, really. But only when i'm not working. If I was jobless, this comic would have been draw, colored, printed and wrapped weeks before the TCAF. But since I do have and require a job to live, this isn't going to happen.
Because i'm such a stable girl, this send me in a weird spiraling loops of freaking out. I wanted to finish this comic for the TCAF. I wanted to go to the TCAF to meet a whole bunch of artists friends. I wanted to achieve this.
But yeah. I'm not an idiot. I realize that under the current circumstances, it ain't happening. My editor reassured me that he had no problem with me getting this done later and therefore only presenting it at the TCAF for next year. So I guess 2012 will be my year for comics. I plan on having two wonderful books ready for the 2012 comic conventions.
I wish I had cash that fell out of the sky or something.
I was still going to work hard on the off-chance that I manage to finish in time for the TCAF, but really, I think it would be better if I took my time and produced good pages with good inking instead of pages inked quickly in a fashion that just screams "PANIC". Because inking by hand can look great, but not when you nervously squibble.
I wish I could draw all day and get income that way.
Guess i'll need to work on my portfolio and start applying to agencies for artists and such. ALSO REALLY GOOD NEWS : Link finally got a job as game designer in a small company. He's finally going to be able to live off his art, after 5 years of trying. I'm so happy, proud and jealous at the same time. This calls for an epic party.
Sorry for unloading on you guys again. But your comments always make me feel better! :D HUGS ALL AROUND!
Have an Alice and Lewis Carroll drawing. This got turned into a colored donation wallpaper for Namesake.